| "Left To My Ambitions I Find Myself Feeling
Short Of Breath And Losing Hope Again"
~Haste the Day - Breaking My Own Heart~
i havent been in the best of moods lately... im not too happy with the way anythin is goin for me right now and i dont know why im bein really distant from everyone right now because im hopin that just backin away from everythin will help some... i hope it does
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| so yea its been a while but theres not much good to write about... everything in between now and the last post has pretty much gone wrong but somehow... i dont know how... im managing to really smile and laugh again... thats about it... o and im pretty sure valentines day sucks pretty bad
"If we never meet again it would be too soon.
I'm glad I ran from you and now my life's a mess.
And I'll have to admit that I have made a mistake.
And every path that I take has lead me right back to here.
And I never should have left."
~Thursday - Streaks in the Sky~
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| so its been a while since a real update... ive just been goin thru a tough time lately and i guess i just need to suck it up and im tryin and mostly have but the only thing really botherin me now other than bein sick is that i practice so hard and i come up short of a top ten swim every time and its always less than a second away... its almost like coach has been handin top ten spots out like candy this year but i just cant seem to get it... i keep tryin but its like an endless hallway... i just cant reach it... i knew it would be hard but its startin to seem impossible... definitely trainin harder because im not gonna screw up at county like i did at the meet thursday...second place is nice but its not good enough... ive got my eye on first... |
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| i wish i knew what to do... |
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emotional overdose anyone? try it its horrible... trust me
